My One Year Bible reading today launched me off on what’s probably my least favorite book of the bible… the book of Job. Not one I turn to for recreational reading, I tell you! I know it has some great lessons but I sometimes feel it potrays God as a bored, clueless yet all-powerful potentate who turns over his best agent to a wicked, conniving enemy (no government I know would do that) just to win a bet or proove a point! Just keeping it real here… I guess part of my discomfort with the book is that I don’t enjoy the thought of suffering, especially seemingly meaningless suffering! I’m not a fan of situations when I’m not in control… when life doesn’t make sense. So I’m asking Papa to help me not shut out what I’m reading but to gain wisdom from it.
So not long after I had done my reading today, I came across this poem on the internet who’s author I couldn’t trace. All I can say is… wow!
WAIT (Author Unknown)
Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried.
Quietly, patiently, lovingly God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate,
And the Master so gently said, “Child, you must wait!”
Wait?, you say, wait!” my indignant reply.
” Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is Your hand shortened? Or have You not heard?
By FAITH I have asked, and am claiming Your Word.”
“And Lord, You promised that if we believe
We need but to ask, as we shall receive.
And Lord, I’ve been asking, and this is my cry:
I’m weary of asking! I need a reply!”
He seemed then to kneel and His eyes wept with mine,
And He tenderly said, “I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens, and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead, and cause mountains to run.
All you seek, I could give, and pleased you would be.
You would have what you want — but, you wouldn’t know ME.”
“You’d not know the depth of My love for each saint;
You’d not know the power that I give to the faint;
You’d not learn to see through the clouds of despair;
You’d not learn to trust just by knowing I’m there;
You’d not know the joy of resting in Me
When darkness and silence were all you could see.”
“You’d never experience that fullness of love
As the peace of My Spirit descends like a dove;
You’d know that I give and I save … (for a start),
But you’d not know the depth of the beat of My heart.”
The flow of My comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight,
The depth that’s beyond getting just what you asked
Of an infinite God, who makes what you have LAST.”
“You’d never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that ‘My grace is sufficient for thee.’
Yes, your dreams for your loved ones overnight would come true,
But, oh, the loss! if I lost what I’m doing in you!”
“So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
That THE GREATEST OF GIFTS IS TO GET TO KNOW ME.
And though oft may My answers seem terribly late,
My wisest of answers is still but to WAIT.”
Not an easy reply. But helpful nonetheless. If you’re going through a tough time of waiting right now, I hope this is encouraging to you. If you’ve struggled with feeling the book of Job like me, I hope this gives you some extra perspective!
God bless and have a great week!