Often, I want to know exactly how God is going to do something before I believe He will. I want God to make sense. I want Him to dot the i’s and cross the t’s. I want to know the what’s, how’s and when’s! But God’s ways are not always clear to me. It’s not always clear to me what God is up to. That’s why I like the story of the empty tomb. Mary Magdalene immediately assumed that someone had stolen Christ’s body. But John (aka the disciple Jesus loved) saw the same situation and reached a different conclusion. Even though he didn’t understand that Scriptures said Jesus would rise from the dead, the bible told us ‘he saw and believed’.
I suspect the reason he refers to himself as ‘the disciple Jesus loved’ is that’s what the rest of the disciples called him. And it probably was because he spent more time around Jesus than any of the other disciples and had become his closest friend. There are some people like that – they give themselves so unreservedly that you are drawn to them. I don’t believe God has favorites. He loves us all. But those who hang out with Him and give themselves unreservedly through spending time with Him seem to gain a special understanding and favor. Maybe that’s why John is able to believe when others only see strips of linen and burial cloths!
Like John, in my own generation, I want to be known as ‘the disciple Jesus loved’. Lord, help me to stay so connected to You that I too will believe the impossible and see the invisible. Right now there are things that I’m trusting You for that defy human logic and provision. And though I don’t have a clue how You will do it, I choose to believe it. AMEN